Unexpected revelations from the diaries of Marilyn Monroe: "One person cannot truly love another."

2024 Author: Richard Flannagan | [email protected]. Last modified: 2023-12-15 23:55

June 1 marks the 90th anniversary of the birth of one of the most beautiful women of the twentieth century. Marilyn Monroe … So much has been written about her, and this information is so contradictory that it is extremely difficult to see the real Marilyn behind them. Probably no one can tell about her better than herself. Recently, excerpts from her diaries were published, which allow you to see her from an unexpected angle and find out what previously could only be guessed at.

For a long time, the diaries were kept by the widow of American director Lee Strasberg - it was to him that Marilyn bequeathed her archives. Anna Strasberg recently decided to publish them. The book "Marilyn Monroe: Fragments", which includes letters and diary entries of the actress, is called the best book about her and the first real autobiography, since everything that was published earlier was only the memories of other people about her.

She started keeping a diary at 16 when she first got married. Her first disappointments are connected with Jim Dougherty: “From the very first night I spent with him, I began to doubt our relationship … He attracted me because he was one of the few young people for whom I did not feel sexual disgust. It seemed to me that he was endowed with amazing qualities that I did not have. (…) I had a false sense of security around him. (…) I was in a bad mood last night. I was tired of my mistrust of him because of another girl. I was waiting for him, but he did not appear. I was afraid that he would see me in such a pitiful state. Then it turned out that he actually spent the night with another woman. I could bear the refusal, but I could not become a fool. They lived with Dougherty for only a year. Baseball player Joe DiMaggio became her second husband, this marriage was also short-lived - after 9 months they broke up. Marilyn did not mention Di Maggio in her diary.

Marilyn's third marriage was the longest - she lived with Arthur Miller from 1956 to 1961. She wrote about him with admiration and adoration: “I really want to protect Arthur, I love him - and he is the only person - whom I have ever known, whom I am able to love not only as a man to whom I am drawn almost to unconsciousness - but and he is the only person … whom I trust as much as myself - because when I really believe myself (in some things), I do it completely."

Parting with Arthur Miller was very painful for Marilyn. From his notes, she accidentally learned that he was disappointed in her and was ashamed of her in front of his friends. On the set of The Misfits, the playwright who wrote the script for this film fell in love with another woman. Marilyn admitted in her diary: "I was always very afraid to be someone's wife: life has taught me that one person cannot really love another."

After her divorce from Miller, the actress fell into a deep depression, she was haunted by thoughts of death: “I would like to die. Don't exist at all. But how can I do this … I really like the Brooklyn Bridge. It's beautiful and the air is so clean. When you walk on it, everything seems fine, even in spite of the frantic traffic. No, it should be another bridge - ugly and without a beautiful view …”. She endlessly delves into herself: “It is wrong for a person like me to engage in detailed introspection - I already think it over enough. It's not fun to know yourself too well, or to think you know yourself well - everyone needs a little bit of mystery to get through the falls."

While surrounded by crowds of fans and admirers, she felt infinitely lonely: “Alone !!!!!! I am alone, I am always alone, no matter what happens. " In 1961, Marilyn Monroe ended up in a psychiatric clinic, from where she wrote to Lee Strasberg: “… They put me in a cell (concrete panels and other attributes) for very sick patients. (…) I had the feeling that I was in prison for a crime that I did not commit. (…) I told them: "If you are going to treat me like a psycho, then I will behave like a psycho." The doctor said that I was a very, very sick girl and had been a very, very sick girl for many years.” On August 5, 1962, Marilyn's body was found at her home. The official version is suicide.

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